Hurting

I have good days and bad days... today was a bad day. I thought about Grandma A LOT. I thought about how I'll never be able to call her again. She'll never attend another one of Kennedy's birthdays. We'll never go shopping again. We'll never sit next to each other in church again :( I know none of these things compares to where she is now, but my heart just hurts. I cry a lot when I'm by myself... and I try to be strong around everyone else. Every time Kennedy sees me cry she says, "Do you miss Grandma Patty??" She knows, I can't hide it. But I try.

When does it stop hurting so bad?? :(